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You Deserve to See the Kittens

I love myself. It was not always so.

published on Feb 17, 2022

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When You’re Heartbroken

Feb 14, 2022

I’m feeling a little heartbroken today. Not about anything in particular, really. Just about life in general. Some days be that way. And, you know, it’s a day when the world conspires to ask us all to be cheerful and look on the bright side and love ourselves and spread love and be full of hearts and happiness. So I wanted to take a time out and suggest something a little radical:

In The Belly

Jan 31, 2022

In the belly. That is the literal meaning of the word "Imbolc," which holy day is February 1 or 2, depending how you calculate. It refers to the time of year when the lambs are in the bellies of the ewes. It is a time of potentiality.

What If It Were Worth It

Nov 07, 2021

So I got on the plane yesterday morning and we're taxiing to the runway and the pilot comes on and says, "Well, folks, it looks like we'll be flying into something of a situation in Tampa. We're getting word of storms and high winds and rain." And I'm like, okay, why are you calling it a situation and should I be worried but he keeps going.

For Syble

Oct 11, 2021

My grandmother was a pious woman A quiet woman A compliant woman She read her Bible every night Tidied up the kitchen Fed the men and ate when they were done Then tidied up again

Slowing Down to Tree Time

Aug 20, 2020

I was on my land briefly yesterday, not long enough to offer to bring ba...

So You Want to Set Up an Altar

Aug 19, 2020

I drunk-posted photos of my altar a couple nights ago on Facebook, and s...

The Great Pandemic Time - A Bedtime Story

Jul 12, 2020

“Tell me about the old times again, Mommy.” ...

The Restorative Labor of Love

Jul 06, 2020

It's a labor of love. ...

What It's Like to Receive Messages from The Land

Jul 06, 2020

Hey Fen, Do you min...

I go naked in the woods

Jul 01, 2020

I go naked in the woods.

Unbreaking and Re-membering

Jun 30, 2020

I've been up on my land.

How white cis women weaponize their oppression

Jun 29, 2020

To begin, let's get the obvious point out of the way: Women's oppression is a thing. A ...

Spirituality and the Path of Justice

Jun 19, 2020

I have been aware, in the past few weeks, of a certain seeming contradic...

How to clear a site of poison ivy

May 20, 2020

When I woke the first morning in the mountains this past week, it was ra...

Whippoorwill: Voices from the Otherworld

May 19, 2020

This entry is part of an ongoing project to develop a Magic of the Appalachians card deck ...

If You Are Called To It, How to Support My Work

May 18, 2020

I brought myself to the mountains this past week, along with a great deal else, but, most impo...

Anamchara, soul-friend

May 10, 2020

Yesterday, the chickens were out running about and I was supervising. Ev...


May 06, 2020

The most important stories are often the hardest to weave.

Heat of sun

May 01, 2020

The year is 1995. I am a senior in college. ...

Meditations upon the profitability of quail eggs

Apr 30, 2020

Unlike chickens, who can be somewhat consistent in laying their eggs in ...

Chick Football

Apr 23, 2020

The chicks have this thing they do where one of them finds a big prize. ...

Delight on the Edge of Chaos–the Lesson of the Brown Thrasher

Apr 02, 2020

One of the things that is hardest about this confinement, for me persona...

What the Woodpecker Had to Say

Mar 31, 2020

A few months ago, I began to see and hear a lot of woodpeckers. One time...

A Message from the Rooted Ones and the Stone People

Mar 29, 2020

I went to the mountains today, to close up my treehouse and bring home s...

Fear in the Woods

Mar 21, 2020

So, here's a tale of terror. I'm all right, y'all, but WHEW.

Boobs of Doom

Mar 20, 2020

I was bitten by a spider today. I expect superpowers any minute.

The Parts that Grow Best in the Darkness

Mar 15, 2020

There's a beech tree in the woods at Dragon Hollow. It's deep, deep in t...

Why I talk about my trauma

Feb 17, 2020

I've had a number of folks recently tell me they're worried about me bec...

A night in the woods

Feb 03, 2020

I spent the night in the mountains Saturday night. First time in too lon...

When the Land Speaks, I Listen

Jan 27, 2020

A few days ago, I remarked to a friend that I wished I knew more about t...

My Own Personal School of Design

Jan 17, 2020

A couple days ago, in a business meeting, a friend and colleague complim...

Two dragons remembering

Jan 17, 2020

She was sitting at a table in a street cafe. I was passing by.

I'm Full of My Self

Jan 11, 2020

I got accused of being "full of myself" in a

Working with the Energies of Holly and Pine as a Smudge

Jan 08, 2020

Please meet my friends, holly and pine. Oh, and a lovely Old One, a piec...

The Spring in Winter

Jan 04, 2020

I love Spring peepers. ...

From the darkness of my womb

Dec 26, 2019

CW: Graphic descriptions of women's bodies and sickness. Also, mention o...

About the man crossing in front of me at the Food Lion and also rage and also compassion

Dec 26, 2019

He had a light brown beard and was wearing a flannel shirt over a t-shir...

Sitting in Darkness

Dec 21, 2019

Today is the shortest day of the year, tonight the longest night.

Signposts Pointing to Power

Dec 16, 2019

Spider is one of my primary animal spirit guides. She is especially sacr...

Of Dragons, Trees, and Druids

Dec 07, 2019

It's an alder. In the photo.

Come to the woods with me and sit

Nov 20, 2019

Have you heard the whistle-beat of a woodpecker's wings overhead? Watche...

I'll bring the flowers

Nov 13, 2019

My aunt and I were not on good terms when she died.

If you're here for it, it's enough

Nov 04, 2019

This morning have you seen a sparkle of light through the shaken leaves ...

Happy Pride Month

Jun 04, 2019

Everything Is Broken

Jun 03, 2019

“Everything is broken, yet much remains.” ~ Stone Person

Expand Your Definition of Love

May 26, 2019

I went to Dragon Hollow today. Climbed up the stream bed with two bags, ...

In Which I Have Done a Thing I Have Wanted to Do For More Than Ten Years

Apr 27, 2019

The boy and I (oldest, age 18), drove into Charlotte with my trailer and...

The Things You Don't See Until You Know They're There

Apr 04, 2019

It's amazing what you don't see until you know it's there.

Getting Back to My Roots in the Garden

Mar 17, 2019

It doesn't have to be complicated.

I Wish I Could Learn to Listen to the Trees and Other Comments that Punch Me in the Gut

Dec 17, 2018

Someone I follow on Facebook recently posted a link to

You Are Vastly Underestimating Your Cat

Dec 16, 2018

I'm not judging you. I'm just saying. You are vastly underestimating you...

Coming Out As Gay Is Contagious and Other True Lies I've Told Myself

Nov 07, 2018

When Glennon Doyle announced her engagement to Abby Wombach, I had a rea...

Why I Changed My Name to Fen

Nov 07, 2018

Hey Fen, Why'd you ...

About That Abyss and The Walking Through Thereof

Nov 04, 2018

It's been on my heart to post an update to

Healing Is Fucking Hard

Nov 03, 2018

Look, I don't know how to say this in a way that hasn't already been sai...

Sex, The Universe, And Everything

Nov 01, 2018

Have you ever had really great sex?

A Lighthearted Chat About Toxic Christianity and the Hell It Creates on Earth

Nov 15, 2017

I'm thinking about when that pussy-grabbing tape came out.

Grandma Leaves Me Coins

May 28, 2014

This post was originally written for my old blog under my old name at

In Case You Kind Of Want To Die Right Now

Jan 01, 1970

Somebody I love once came to me and said, "I wish I could die."

The Medicine of Vultures

Jan 01, 1970

The Date: March Something, 2018.

Starting the Garden

Jan 01, 1970

I have always loved to grow food, but never had a great place 

Cracks are how the light gets in

Jan 01, 1970

Cracks... Cracks ar...