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I’ll bring the flowers

I’ll bring the flowers

My aunt and I were not on good terms when she died. It has been one of the great regrets of my life. Her father had died just a few months prior, and in the last weeks of his life she and I had had a falling out over his care and other things....

If you’re here for it, it’s enough

If you’re here for it, it’s enough

This morning have you seen a sparkle of light through the shaken leaves of a cypress, after an unseen squirrel has hastened across the branch? Yesterday, did you examine the exact shape of an oak leaf, its veins branching like blood vessels, like roots, like lightning, a thousand fractal shades of red and brown...

Everything Is Broken

Everything Is Broken

“Everything is broken, yet much remains.” ~ Stone Person There’s this atheist Australian comedian I really love named Tim Minchin. He’s funny and vulgar and smart, but he also annoys me. He has this energy that is common among atheists (not all atheists, to be clear) of disdain for anything that hasn’t been thoroughly...

Expand Your Definition of Love

Expand Your Definition of Love

I went to Dragon Hollow today. Climbed up the stream bed with two bags, filled them both with stones. Carried them down again and put them in my car. When I got home, I lined part of the garden path with them. Garden photos later. First I want you to know what happened in...

About That Abyss and The Walking Through Thereof

About That Abyss and The Walking Through Thereof

It’s been on my heart to post an update to my post about walking through the valley of the shadow of death. The Abyss. The Void. Your Own Personal Hell. Whatever you call that screaming, snotting, sobbing, lonely part of the healing journey that nobody can do for you and that doesn’t actually feel...

Healing Is Fucking Hard

Healing Is Fucking Hard

Look, I don’t know how to say this in a way that hasn’t already been said a thousand times, but I need to say it anyway. Healing is fucking hard. I wish, for your sake and mine, that it were all about showing up and letting someone else pull oracle cards and shake rattles...