I’ve had a number of folks recently tell me they’re worried about me because they think I’m “stuck” in trauma because I talk about it. http://fendruadin.com/wp-content/uploads/2020/02/talk-about-trauma.mp3 Description: Audio of this article, as read by the author Here’s the truth. I talk about my trauma because that is part of how I heal it. Stories are …
I spent the night in the mountains Saturday night. First time in too long. I need nights in the mountains like most people need air. http://fendruadin.com/wp-content/uploads/2020/02/Night-in-the-woods.mp3 Audio version: The author reads this article aloud I went with a relatively new friend. A serendipitous scenario, out with mutual friends the night before. I say, I’m camping …
A few days ago, I remarked to a friend that I wished I knew more about the old barn that sits on my land. http://fendruadin.com/wp-content/uploads/2020/02/when-the-land-speaks.m4a Audio of the author reading this blog article, with descriptions of photos The old barn, seen through the woods Yesterday, I was meditating in a location well in the interior …
She was sitting at a table in a street cafe. I was passing by. From quite some distance down the street, we noticed each other. Our eyes met as I approached, and I had the sensation that I knew her, but I didn’t recognize her. http://fendruadin.com/wp-content/uploads/2020/02/Two-dragons-remembering.m4a Audio of the author reading the article, “Two dragons …
A couple days ago, in a business meeting, a friend and colleague complimented my sense of style. It was a warm moment, and I appreciated it. When he, joking, asked me for the name of my fashion designer, I wish I’d had the presence of mind to suggest the design academy where I studied. In …
I got accused of being “full of myself” in a Facebook comment yesterday. Welp. Reckon I am. It was intended as an insult, of course. To put me in my place. To devalue and dismiss the deeply considered and researched statements I had made in a previous comment. It was intended that way, but I …
Please meet my friends, holly and pine. Oh, and a lovely Old One, a piece of quartz that asked to come home with me the last time I was on my land. Holly represents protection, strength, and perseverance, as well as immortality and fertility. It has a strongly masculine energy, even though the berries we …
I love Spring peepers. They’re my favorite. There aren’t any audible in the video below, because they are shy. But if you come to my land and sit long enough by this creek, eventually they will decide you belong here, and then they will sing to you. http://fendruadin.com/wp-content/uploads/2020/02/The-spring-in-winter.mp3 Description: Audio recording of the author reading …
He had a light brown beard and was wearing a flannel shirt over a t-shirt. Blue jeans. A little pudge over the top of his belt. White. I stopped the car and let him cross in front of me, feeling suddenly an immense compassion arising from my gut. He waved gratitude, walked on. I’ve never …
CW: Graphic descriptions of women’s bodies and sickness. Also, mention of child sexual abuse. I was going to write you a lovely, holiday-y post about the newborn sun and the return of the light, but then I spent the afternoon in a scaldingly hot tub of bloody water, throwing up over the side onto the …